Somebody to love!

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Each morning I get up I die a little

Can barely stand on my feet

Take a look in the mirror and cry

Lord what you're doing to me

I have spent all my years in believing you

But I just can't get no relief, Lord!

Somebody, somebody

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life

I work till I ache my bones

At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -

I get down on my knees

And I start to pray

Till the tears run down from my eyes

Lord - somebody - somebody

Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -

But everybody wants to put me down

They say I'm goin' crazy

They say I got a lot of water in my brain

Got no common sense

I got nobody left to believe

Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord

Somebody - somebody

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm

I just keep losing my beat

I'm ok, I'm alright

Ain't gonna face no defeat

I just gotta get out of this prison cell

Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love

Can anybody find me somebody to love?

LaLaLa

Had a pretty good day today! :) Had some positive feedback on my preproduction work on the documentary video that I am doing for the Atlanta Lions Club. It is a very good feeling. Makes me feel like I may be in the right direction and that I might actually have a talent for this! YAY! Always a good thing.

Saw a ladybug in my car today! Aren't they suppose to be good luck? I hope so-I really could use some!

Updated my youtube account today! Added some videos from back in high school when I won the Atlanta Press Pass Program. The video that I added me and two other classmate wrote, directed, filmed, and edited a 60 second package on the Atlanta Thrashers! It was so much fun and I mss doing stuff like that. http://www.youtube.com/user/fthomps1

So watching Glee right now! LOVE this show! haha! Didn't think I was going to get so into this show but it is good.

Randomness!!

So today has been a pretty productive day-well tonight has been at least and I have brownies, good smelling candles, wine and GREAT music to thank for that.

I have been pretty damn stressed recently! I have a lot going on at the moment. Even though graduation is months away it is starting to freak me out and the idea that I will be out on my own in less than a year really makes me nervous. So all of that leads to a mini mental break down Sunday night (well not a mini one, it was pretty full blown). Though after getting through that I have been feeling better and am able to think about my options after graduation a little clearer.

So taking 18 credit hours this semester-but I have more work outside of school than I do for school. I am currently working on a documentary video for the Atlanta Lions Club that will hopefully be used as a promotional tool. This is proving to be a lot of work since I am doing all of the research, writing, filming, directing, editing, etc...basically everything that is involved in getting a video accomplished. Working on this video is probably one of the best learning experiences ever! I am being able to take what I am learning in class and apply it to a real life situation. (This is the whole point of getting a higher education - right?) Being able to work on something like this makes me happy, makes me believe that this is the right career for me and I might actually have some talent and a shot in making it in the industry.- Who knows!?

So I am really struggling with whether or not graduate school is a good option for me right after graduation. I am scheduled to take the GRE on October 24th. So I have been doing a lot of studying for that-but have not gotten very far! I am not very good with vocabulary and math! But I am trying to keep my options open!

I think I have a problem with just letting things happen!! I do way too much planning and worrying about the future and I think sometimes I forget about the present! That is not living everyday like it is your last-not when you are planning so much for the future. I think I amy need to change that a little.

Well I am off for now! Have had a very long and interesting day today and need my beauty sleep for hump day!! hehe! But I am going to keep up with this more often and possibly do a little creative writing on here!

Keep on visiting!

Currently listening to: Hey Jude by The Beatles

So EXCITED! So HYPER!!

I am so excited!! At the moment I am finishing packing then Kelsey and I are driving down as far as Valdosta tonight and then heading the rest of the way to Orlando tomorrow! We are meeting Larissa in Orlando! I am so excited! It has been way too long since the three of us have been together! It is going to be so much fun, and I am documenting the entire trip so expect to see a video up here when we get back from all the crazyness that is going to happen! Need to make everyone jealous!

I love my life and I love my girls!!

Kelsey and Larissa-you guys have always had my back and I love you for that! Thanks for everything!

Listening to "Waking up in Vegas" by Katy Perry on REPEAT!!

Today!

Going to Helen Georgia with the family today! I am excited! Going to bring the Video and digital camera up and going to document everything. I really should be doing more of that recently! Now I just have to find my video camera and charge it. lol.

So last night hung out with a couple of old and new friends. Sometimes I miss living down here-and I miss my high school friendships. I was so lucky to have such amazing friends in hs and so luck to have continued to be friends with them, just sad that we don't get to see each other that often. Oh well.

Well unfortunately this is going to have to be a short post-have to finish getting ready so Cameron and I can meet the family up at 10. WAY too early! Haha! (You know your in summer vacay mode when 10 in the morning is too early! Love it)

Love

Its been way too long!

I have been really busy recently! Just finished up my 3rd class for summer school. And to prove to you how busy I have been I will post one of the videos I edited for class.

This was edited on Avid in two days. I am pretty proud.

HOT

So I'm loving being in Valdosta for the summer...except for the fact that it gets very HOT here!! Today the high is 95 with a heat index for 105 and humidity is at 100%....Sounds miserable to me! 

I only have class in the morning today! Yay! But I am taking 4 tests that are worth 40% of my grade. Then I am going to spend the rest of the day insides, cleaning and working on scripts! 

I am SO glad it is the weekend! I need sleep! I do not like waking up this early! Not at all!

Beatles Fact

Three years ago this week Billy Preston, keyboard player on Let It Be, passed away.

Long day!

So gym didn't happen today but I am determined it will tomorrow! After writing this I am going to go to sleep and if that happens it will be the first time I have gone to bed before midnight in AGES!! 

Today was an interesting and LONG day! Had class from 8-1:35 then another one from 2-5:15. These classes aren't going to be too bad because they are both practical classes, I just hope I can rise to the occasion. In my video workshop class we got assigned a promotional video...all 14 of us are working on one video! CHAOS! I am one of the three writers that are working on the one script for the video. I really wish I had offered to be a producer for this video but I will try to put more input from a writing point of view. 

Just spitting things out....

I am a mess (Chaos) 

depressed, rest, pest, compressed, fearless, heartless, painless, loveless, impressed, less, yes

life, relationships, emotions, self-esteem, love, family, jobs, friends 

the feeling of standing still, watching everyone live around you.

I am  at the crossroads of  my life 

standing still

watching the red turn to green 

for everyone but me

Staring up at the red light

thats hindering me from my potential 

Reflecting on the past

Wishing I 

Drive 

Not too sure what is going to come from this...if anything but this is what is running through my mind at the moment, (may not make any sense to you....but kinda does to me, or it will...hopefully)

Getting tired now....20 mins before midnight-not too bad--goodnight 

Early

Haven't updated in a while. 

It is early.

I am cold.

Sunburns hurt.

Distracted.....

Class from 8-5!

Gym after class-if I am still functioning. 

Bye for now. 

Change

Had a really good talk with a good friend last night and I came to the conclusion that the only thing constant in life is change! 

FINALLY FINISHED!!!

I finally finished Cameron's graduation gift!! YAYAYAY!! It took me over a week to complete! I had to find all 400 + pictures, scan them into the office computer, transfer them over to mine, put them in order, and deal with all the technical difficulties!! But it is finally finished! Yay! I will probably be fixing a couple things and possibly adding a few more pictures-but ultimately this is the finished product!

Congrats Cameron Thompson Class of 2009!! 

Way too long!

It has been way too long since I have posted on here! Sry! I have been really busy. In the last week Cameron has graduated high school, spoken at his baccalaureate, gave a sermon at youth sunday and Alyssa has played a solo at her 8th grade spring orchestra concert. She was absolutely amazing. I will be posting a video up of that soon.  

I have also been really busy finishing Cameron's graduation gift-which I finally finished up last night!! yay!!! Now I just need to start working on a few other videos--I am really enjoying this again! 

Cameron receiving his diploma! 

Cameron outside of his school 

Cameron and I at his graduation dinner 

Me and Cameron after graduation! YAY!

Alyssa' s solo-- Allegro by Vivaldi

I am going to need coffee today!

Good morning! 

Well I am debating if it is a good one or not. I was up really late last night(4 am) working on a secret project and I now I am up pretty early BUT Cameron is graduating from high school today- So I guess that makes it a good morning! But WOW am I tired! I will definitely be needing coffee and lots of it!! 

So it is amazing what you can get accomplished when you are focused and you stay focused. I had a random spurt of being focused last night that started at 9. Finished helping Cameron write and revise his youth Sunday sermon and then started working on this secret project and didn't finish for another 5 hours! 

While editing I found my old graduation video that I made for my parents when I was graduating high school. So I am going to attempt to put that up here. 

Well I need to get off and go shower and get all ready! Cameron looks amazing in his dress pants and shirt! Oh today is going to be a BLESSED day!

Sketch-O

I am too nice! And how am I rewarded? By being hit on by sketch-o guys!! AHHH!! I am going to be mean from now on an see how well that works out for me!

Well I am tired-gnight! 

Why does this always happen?

Does anyone else notice that your body rejects finals!? It's the week before finals and I am getting sick! Damn! The last two days I have been feeling really sick to my stomach! I cannot afford to get sick! AHHH!! 

I could not be more happy that it is the weekend! Though I have so much that I have to do this weekend: clean, study, gym, study, pool, SLEEP, get better! lol! I probably wont be going out much-or at all this weekend. :( Last weekend in Valdosta before summer and I wont be going out. Oh well! 

Well class is calling! Last 2 classes of my Jr yr! Where did the time go?!

Peace. Love. Dream

--Oh ya! Pinch, Punch, First day of the month....and no return! Gottcha!

Beatles Fact

Music video for "Something" from Abbey Road. As the Beatles were not getting along, each segment was shot in isolation.

RANT TIME!!

Ok-So I just read this article and it absolutely infuriates me! As a part of the youth Christian crowd that this article is addressing it makes me sick! I cannot understand how someone who can call them self a Christian can be SO judgmental. Those who are homosexual are not by choice, someone would not simply wake up one morning and decide that they are no longer attracted to someone of the opposite sex. It absolutely pisses me off to hear people argue that homosexuality is a choice and that they do not deserve the same rights as heterosexual couples do. Love is love-love is an unconditional bond between two people- whether they are of the same sex or not and I fully agree with those people that this article is lashing out against.

 I am a Christian, but I am not a fundamentalist Christian! I believe that there are some things that are mentioned in the Bible that just cannot be applied to modern life. If you want proof of this read Leviticus in the Old Testament. This is the book that many use against homosexuality-but one can also read in this book that it is a sin to eat blood (blood pudding) and a sin to eat animal fat.  Also in this book it states that "You may eat any animal that has a split hoof completely divided and that chews the cud." Leviticus 11  "And the pig, though it has a split hoof completely divided, does not chew the cud:it is unclean for you. You must not eat their meat or touch their carcasses; they are unclean for you" Leviticus 11. 

Everything that is said in the Bible cannot be taken literally-and for those who use the Bible-and especially the passage in Leviticus as means to back up their reasonings against homosexuality better not be eating pork! Do not use the Bible to justify your uneasyness with homosexuality. We are all Gods children. God does not judge and nor should you. 

Below the article that inspired this lovely rant. 

http://christianpost.com/Opinion/Opinions/2009/04/miley-versus-jesus-on-marriage-28/index.html 

Daily Beatles

I think I am going to add a daily Beatles fact. Here is todays:

Eleanor Rigby was recorded today in 1966. As John said, it was "Paul's baby, and I helped with the education of the child..."

A New Day

It is amazing what a difference a couple of days can make. This weekend I was in the worst mood ever, feeling very lonely, bored, and unaccomplished. I was probably feeling this way for many reasons, 1. Because I am not working I have way too much free time, and I do not do well with a lot of free time, 2. I normally do not take my adderall on the weekends-something that I think I am going to change because the difference it makes is amazing, 3. I missed my family! The weekends are always the hardest-I just want to hop in my car and drive to see them! 4. I was lonely-I am beginning to get to know some people down here but I'm thinking I have some self confidence issues because I don't fully feel myself around anyone down here. That needs to change fast. 

This week however I'm feeling much better. The 4 things I noted above still apply but I feel like I am handling it better. During the week I have more to keep me busy and getting to classes and being around people helps. 

So I woke up this morning with a new drive! I am going to put this new found ability to focus and get things accomplish to good use and use my day off to get things done. Recently my mind has gone from a jumbled mess where I could barely here myself think to a place where I could have clear and complete thoughts. Its amazing what a difference that has made in my lift-for instance I can actually sit down and write without getting lost in my own thoughts. 

Well I need to take this drive and apply it to that essay that is due tomorrow! I am so ready for this semester to be over. 

Peace. Love. Dream

The Astronaut -- Something Corporate 

Notes from my Heart

We are no longer is love

We grew apart

Those many blissful memories 

are slowly dying in my heart 

There was once a day we said forever

Now I see our love has ended

forever turning into never

We held on for too long

struggling for peace

Fighting for our love

dreaming of a release 

Now 

I'm going to be strong

I'm going to be free

I'm letting go of you

and focusing on me

I gave our love everything

now my heart is in two

I need to love myself

and not rely on you

Accomplishment

Thats right! I just accomplished something-and for those who have ever lived with me or know me well know that this is a huge accomplishment! I fully finished a load of laundry!! Thats right-from washer to dryer to folding and hanging to being put away! All in one day-all in just an hour and a half! Its sad that this could really be considered an accomplishment-but in my very unfocused life something as simple as getting laundry done in one day, and not one week, is a major fete! Not only did I just complete a load of laundry but I also got quite a bit of an essay done, well the rough draft. Its a pretty intense essay- I am applying the Marxist Theory to the popular social networking site Facebook. 

Well now I am going to use this focus and apply it to me finishing off Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows! Gnight!

Peace. Love. Dream. 

Giving this a try

I am going to go ahead and try to give this whole blog thing a shot. I have tried once before but didn't really keep up with it. I have so much going on in my mind that I feel like I just need to let it escape in someway-so this will be it. I will probably be using my blog to rant/vent and to type up some poems/lyrics that have been running through my head recently. 

But as for now I have to go-it is the last week of classes and I have a huge paper and presentation due on Wednesday that I have not started on. The end of the semester is ALWAYS so stressful. 

But I am really going to try to keep up with this better-for my own sake. 

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